Wednesday, June 8, 2011

3 years ago...


“The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.

She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.”




when georgia was born three years ago, i could have never imagined the change that would be born in me as well.   i used to think that i didn't want a baby to 'change' me.  now i understand that being her mother is one of the primary ways God has chosen to change me.  he uses different things...different people...different circumstances in our lives to shape us and raising my daughter has been the biggest tool he's used thus far in my life to change the core of who i am.  i was so so insecure those first hours...days...weeks.  so unsure about her...and me...and us together.  so scared that despite my desires, i didn't have what it takes to protect her and love her and care for her.  then he spoke.  and when he did came the reassurance that there is no one else under heaven that he's chosen to be her mother.   no one else has he equipped with the knowledge and tenderness to love and nurture her soul.  indeed i wouldn't be the perfect mother, but i was and am the perfect mother to her.  i took him at his word and believed that he would not forsake me.  and so with that child, a mother was born too....

1 comment:

DeDe said...

love that little baby!